Ike continues his love affair with Baxter, the black lab. He also seriously considered playing with Niche who was REALLY trying to get Ike to play. Hooray!
Today reminded me that I HAVE to listen when the little voice in my head says it might be wise for Ike and I to leave. When I do not listen is when things go wrong and often times, like tonight, it's my fault!
At the end of big dog playgroup Lisa went to get Ryan and bring him in. Ike hates puppies. I leashed Ike and considered scooping him up and putting him in the car. I didn't. Aaack. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Ryan came over, Ike went charging and I pulled back and up essentially hanging Ike. Yeah, nice, huh? I feel like a complete *ss.
It was a complete regression. I am in the midst of being extremely pissed off at myself for not paying attention to the inner voice. I'm not sure how long it will take me to get over being angry with myself and I am not sure how far I set Ike back in his hate of puppies. Well, I certainly reinforced it, that's for sure. Like I said, STUPID!
And to top it off I stopped at Foxboro Animal Hospital on the way home to weigh Ike. Katrin said she thought he looked fatter, well he is!! He has gained a pound and a half. meanwhile he is only getting 3 ounces of meat a day. Argh! I think I should have stayed in bed today. Tomorrow I am getting up early and using my light box (for SAD).
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